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Soak It All In

You take care of yourself. You work hard to provide for your family. Perhaps you read a coaching 

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blog or you enjoy a good self-help book to get ideas on improving yourself. Maybe you go to the gym. Or instead you just got out of debt. Possibly you painted a room in your house. Simpler yet, you prepared a meal for your family. Whatever it is, did you take the time to soak it all in?

Too often we forget to appreciate everything going on in our lives. While trying to just keep up with the day to day necessities of life, it's so easy to pass by all the goodness.

First off, if you are reading this page, consider yourself lucky. You have internet access. If you are reading it on your phone, it means you can afford a data plan for that nice phone of yours. If you are on a home computer, you likely own that and the desk it's on. Better yet, you may own or rent the very room the computer desk is on.

 You have time to read this. You are seeing it clearly because you either have wonderful eyesight or can afford to buy some nice glasses. Let's step back some more. You can read and have been educated.

 

Have you taken the time to just consider all the wonderful things you have going for you in your life? Just stop and take a moment to soak it all in. Life may seem busy, overwhelming, or cluttered. But even if your day is packed or your house is a mess, you have a house and people want you in their lives... that's why you are so busy. Enjoy all the fullness. Marinate in the goodness of your life and all that it entails.

Take a moment. Soak it in.

 

 

 

Okay, it's about time I started writing again.... Expect more soon.

I'm Back!

So, I took a mini vacation from blogging and focused on some other areas of my life. However, I'd like to get back into coaching clients, providing interesting content on my blog to get you motivated, and deciding to matter!

A New Day

Every day is a new day. The morning greets you with a new sunset and a new chance to become who it is you want to become. However, you usually carry yesterday's hopes and regrets around like old luggage. You travels are weighted down. You stumble. You miss the chance encounter with someone who might brighten your day because you are too entrapped in expectations long outdated. Your steps become more sluggish. You're tired.

Some questions that plague you may be....

• Why is it that I get stuck in these old patterns?
• Why doesn't life get better?
• Why haven't I changed after all these years?
• Why does my life suck?

If you have forgone introspection, you may be addicted to criticizing others instead.

• Why does he have it so good?
• What makes her so special?
• Why do those people end up so lucky?
• Why are they excluding me?

What has this to do with this blog?

Frankly, I'm tired of envying others for their success and happiness. What happened to my dreams? When did I stop believing in myself? When did I stop listening to my inner guidance? When did I stop knowing exactly who I was?

Do you ever feel like you woke up to someone else's life? Do you wonder how you got where you are today? Do you wish you were somewhere else? And how do you even begin to change when your ideal life seems so far away.

This is my journey towards a new day. Each day I have a choice. You have a choice, too. Do you want to continue in the same way you did yesterday. Or do you want to change?

I want to change and I want to do something different with my life. Who doesn't want a change?

How exactly do I do that? Do I have a road map? Do I know where I'm going? Not quite. But I believe we are born with guidance that will show us the way if we just listen. My guidance told me I needed to write more. So here I am.

I hope you'll join me on my new day. Each day I intend to listen, write, and do what comes next. Perhaps this post should be titled, Do What Comes Next. Maybe I'll save that for tomorrow.

Step one. Start blog. Check.

Step two. Write again tomorrow....

Asking the Right Questions

Can you believe that April is almost over? I can't! My little time off turned into a long time off. I'm looking forward to regularly writing & blogging, so look forward to some more content.

Here are my thoughts for today.

Asking the Right Questions

It's so tough to filter through all the advice. Between commercials, news reports, magazine ads, and well meaning family & friends, we are constantly bombarded with advice on what to do. Sometimes we forget to ask ourselves for the answers. So here are some questions.

What could you do today to make your day better?
How could you enjoy the day more?
What would you rather be doing with your time, with your life?
What activities lift you up?
What family members do you cherish?
What food makes you melt?
What vision inspires you?
What would feel the best right now?

                What are you waiting for?

Reviving the Dormant

There is this creative spark that resides within us all. While it may not manifest itself as something so obvious as an inclination towards art, it can be held within the sparkle of your eye as you are taken in by an engaging movie or beautiful sunset. For many of us, we are taken to monotonous shifts of work, sleep, survival. Long gone are the highs of idealism many of us embrace in our college years.

Right now I'm attending college. An accelerated program. I enjoy the social interaction that I may not get otherwise. Talking about American Idol is fun albeit not fulfilling. Yet do we deserve a fulfilling career? Are we meant to feel satisfied by our conversations, friendships, interactions, and accomplishments?

Media and marketing would have you think otherwise. There is never enough. You do not have all the colors. Your life is not yet perfect. Buy now. But what of accomplishments and fulfillment? That is where the creative spark comes back in again.

I believe Mother Theresa said that you need oil to light the lamp. We yearn for a creative life or at least a successful one. Whatever that may be. So what oil do we have? Surely not the bread and butter used to pay your rent. That creates a light, but it is dull like florescent - casting everything in a sickly light. Do plants grow in such light? This magical oil, this source of all things, can fuel the inner fire to keep us moving. It needs us as much as we need it. But where do you find it?

Can it be seen in the scribblings on a page? The words encased on the crisp monitor of life? There has to be some threshold jumped, some leap of faith into the unknown. For when art is made to pay the bills, it become rote and routine. There is no gold there. Sure the muse might send us a peak. We might uncover something magical. But I do feel we lose a sense of meaning when we create for the purpose of survival.

On the other hand, I feel we need to create in order to live a fulfilling life. Yet through the act of living creatively, we wipe away all that is untrue. When opening up to the creative spark, our shadows shine even brighter. There is no where to hide.

While trying to waste some time (avoiding the creative leap), I watched America's Next Top Model. Modeling is an act of creation. One must be beautiful, made up, air brushed, flawless. At the same time, one must be natural, open, and free flowing. The woman, this beautiful gazelle, was eliminated from the show. Why? She looked posed. She lacked a naturalness in her movements. She tried too hard. The camera bared all.

Yet how do we know if we are being open? Is there a sense of freedom in our movements? Do we get into the zone? What exactly is the zone anyway? How many of us go through our lives playing a part - as cliche as it sounds? How will we know when we have done right by ourselves? Does it take heavy doses of introspection? A shitty childhood? A proverbial hitting of rock bottom? Oh, do we need to simply delve further into our spirit, into our art, our lives.

What does it take to fully open up our lives? How do we revive the dormant? And how do you do it without it feeling forced? Contrived? Posed? Unnatural?

We must first pay attention to ourselves. When certain songs come on the radio that lighten us up, that fill us with a dancing we cannot control. Those are the moments. Pay attention. You were a little more alive just then. There. Right there. Don't miss it. Or that family on TV that got a new house to help fill their hearts after some such tragedy. You had some feeling then. What do you make of it?

What do you make of it? Really? Are you willing to marinate in your thoughts? The good and the bad? Can you linger with the shadows of doubt that you have something inside you worth digging for? Do you yearn for a creative life? For something more than what you are living now?

Well, I do. And I've decided to stick around and explore: what's in my head, what's in the world, and what isn't. Maybe I'll find something magical. Maybe I won't. But in the end, at least I'll have light for my path.

That's my ramble for the night. Enjoy.

Taking a Break

Happy New Year everyone.

Due to my new job and return to academia, I won't be actively coaching at the moment. However, I will be blogging when time permits. :)

Sincerely,
Kayll

Sometimes It's Just the Blues

Sometimes, no matter how much free time you have, no matter how many new colored pencils you have awaiting use, no matter how many new creative programs you own, none of them seem worth looking at. Yet with society's emphasis on doing doing doing, it can be almost agonizing to not know what to do next.

Yes, there's the holiday shopping. Yes, there are parties to go to. Perhaps you could decorate some more or make cookies for your folks. But sometimes, it's just the blues. And that's okay.

We aren't talking about major depression here or even mild depression, just plain old blues or blahs. So, take a peek out the window. See that sun? No? I don't either. It's gray outside. And depending upon where you live, it's pretty cold, too. Actually where I live, it's about 50 degrees out which is way too warm for this time of year (global warming people). So it doesn't feel like Winter yet. Technically it isn't winter yet. But the winter blues are making their way into many people's homes or cubicles.

Also, I find when I get the winter blues, nothing has any color. Sure I'm surrounded by winter lights, in your face holiday ads, and goodies galore. But despite all the in your face holiday good cheer, it's like watching fireworks on a black and white TV: no sparks, no life.

Granted it may be worrisome to find yourself apathetic to the holidays. But don't stress too much. Here are some tips to get through the winter blues.

1. Get outside. Getting any sunshine during this time of year is pivotal. If you can't do that, get a light box or sun therapy light. They are kind of expensive, but worth it if you feel better when using one.
2. Get some exercise. Yes, as unappealing as it sounds, moving your body does help.
3. Go to bed early. Before the light bulb people went to bed when it got dark. Follow nature's cycle and take it easy. It's okay. I give you permission.
4. Journal. If your mind is spinning yet your body is slow, release some of that energy through your pen. It will help, I promise.
5. Watch funny movies. I signed up for Netflix again and rented a bunch of comedies. The power of laughter is very important. There's even a new type of yoga that focuses on whole body laughter.
6. Eat more carbs. Yes, you'll probably grow a bigger behind in the process, but eating carbs helps to increase the serotonin in your system. That's why we eat carbs in the first place when we are stressing out. Get fat for the winter. No one will notice it under those bulky sweaters anyway.
7. Drink tea. Along with many healthful benefits of drinking tea, the act of sipping hot tea is something I find very relaxing. Tea is the beverage that gives you permission to relax. While coffee is the beverage that allows you to run around at top speed. Think tea. Not coffee.
8. Volunteer. There's always someone out there who has less than you. You'll feel better knowing you are making a difference. And perhaps you'll start to see the abundance in your own life, too.

Those are just some tips for getting through the winter blues. But like the Chinese proverb says,

When its hot, sweat. When it's cold, shiver.

Sometimes we try too hard to fix ourselves, to self-medicate with food or chocolate (yes I know I just told you to eat more carbs), or to drown our sorrows with retail therapy or some such other escape. But there's something to be said for being in the present moment, acknowledging you feel like crap or like nothing at all, and being okay with that.

It's okay to have the blues. They will pass. You'll feel better and forget about it until next year. I promise.

Choose Your Focus

So, with the holidays rapidly approaching, it's easy to get caught up in the swirl of get togethers, shopping excursions, and eating frenzies that decorate our lives this time of year. More often than not, you forget what the holiday is really about. You give over to road rage. You charge up a storm to "out give" your sister. And you put on those extra pounds because you just can't say no to Aunt Sarah.

So what could make this holiday season different? Your focus. You see, we have the amazing ability to literally change our reality simply by what we focus on. How is that possible? Well, look to your childhood memories. Do you recall the hustle and bustle? Do you remember the traffic? Do you remember how much it cost your folks? Of course not. You were a child.

But along with being a child, your focus was on how much fun the holidays were. That was your reality. You got to eat as much dessert at grandma's as you wanted. And the toys! There were even holidays festivities at school. There was Turkey Day and more eating. Cousins came over to play. And Santa? Or Hanukkah and the Festival of Light? Or Yuletide blessings? How delightful!

As a child, your focus was on the fun. Granted you may say things have changed. The gas prices are high. You now have to entertain your kids and get them every electronic gadget under the sun. But that's because you are only focusing on what is stressing you out. So stop doing that.

If you choose to look at the positive aspects of the holiday, soon your memories will be ones of bliss instead of headache. Why is that? Well, your reality is made up of your perception. The human body is a wonderful thing receiving tons of information at all times. Remember those things called the five senses? Well, there is only so much input you can process at any given time. Therefore, you only notice what's on your mind and what's important to you.

It's like getting a new blue car and seemingly everywhere you look, people have the same color car. For some reason, you never noticed before. But because blue cars are now in your focus, your reality has changed a bit. You see the cars everywhere.

The same applies to a positive or negative attitude. If you focus on all the good in the world, you will see more of it. Your brain will also naturally tune out other things in order to alert you to the positive. (If you want to know more about this concept, check out The Secret.) So you really can change your reality with your focus.

The holidays can be different this year. They won't be a blur, but another wonderful time to be with loved ones. This works in all aspects of your life all times of the year as well. Every situation has a flip side that can bring much joy depending upon how you see it and what you choose to focus on.

What will you focus on?

• High gas prices or  how luck you are to have a working vehicle?
• Heating bills or fuzzy warm sweaters?
• Holiday stress or time with loved ones?
• Spending spending spending or giving and receiving?
• Raking leaves or beautiful fall colors?
• Shoveling snow or making snow angels?

Make this year different. Choose your focus.

Doing More By Doing Less

I'm sure you've heard that it's good to do nothing, do less, or simplify. But what exactly does it mean? I know I've written about it before, but at the time I don't think I knew exactly what I was talking about. Let me explain. I used to play piano and take lessons, go to college, have a full-time job, go to a book club, talk to friends online, coach people, spend time with my boyfriend, read books, think about drawing (doh), watch TV, exercise, blog, house sit, and sleep. I like sleep.

Perhaps that isn't that much compared to folks with children. Their lives are dedicated to providing for their family. But for me, I even thought I wasn't doing enough. That free Saturday between classes I could use for a drop-in yoga class. My free Wednesday when I didn't have piano lessons, well I could go out shopping. And that reminds me, I didn't have anything scheduled on Tuesday. Hmmmmm.....

What's even funnier is that during this entire time, I also wanted to lose 30 pounds, learn design and teach myself the Adobe Creative Suite on www.lynda.com, design t-shirts to sell, write a children's story, meditate, take classes to develop my intuition, and learn to draw web comics. Somewhere in my crazy speed addicted brain I thought I could actually do all of that!

However, most of my fast paced activities contributed to the very things I was wishing to remedy. Had I not packed my schedule so full, I would have time to prepare a healthy delicious meal. Instead I bought fatty microwave meals or just lived off popcorn and chocolate. If I wasn't going to school, I could spend my time doing what I enjoyed instead of following a curriculum set by someone else (I normally a self-motivated learner).

I wished to be more creative, but when I squeezed in things, I didn't actually enjoy them. And most of the time, while doing one thing, my mind was out thinking of what I would rather be doing or what I would be doing next.

Does this sound anything like your life right now? If so, you need to take a few moments to just slow down. Heck, I know if this is you right now, slowing down won't mean a thing. You need to go away on a small vacation. Even a weekend away is nice. Here's why.

When I was in my boyfriend's sister's wedding, we only brought the minimal amount of things for the three day stay in New York. Amazingly enough I was okay with just the one book I brought and the GameBoy I had with me. Imagine that! In previous trips to Maine (granted we were staying for a week), I would bring probably 30 books I just might want to read, 20 movies we might want to watch, and a whole slew of video games. Don't forget the yoga mat, exercise DVDs, tarot cards, and art supplies. Did I use any of it on vacation? Sure, I tried doing yoga one night, but got bored. Moreover, instead of reading any of the books I brought, I actually bought a new book at the local bookstore. Go figure.

What I'm trying to say it, we need to be reminded that we can enjoy the simple things. We can enjoy what we have now. We can do more by doing less. We cannot fill ourselves up by moving at breakneck speeds. Sometimes I think we are afraid to slow down and see ourselves in the mirror.

During my Maine vacation, I realized how many activities I had filling up my life. In the silence on the beach, I zoned in on my desire to just read books and daydream. Moreover, I realized that I kept putting my true desires off until I finished college. "Once I finish college, then I can <insert life here>". But I have a great new job where people listen to my ideas. What was I going to college for in the first place? I don't exactly know. It wasn't for the things I truly enjoyed: art, music, writing.

When I got back, I decided to quit school. Actually I had decided to pursue one of my three main interests at another college: art, music, and writing. But I realized I was "doing it again" - getting back into the same patterns of doing too much.

I've made a promise to myself to focus on just being me. I don't have school, my piano teacher has seemed to disappear off the face of the earth, and I'm currently not coaching anyone. Believe or not, I've said no to some pretty amazing opportunities. Why? Because focusing on just being me, chilling out and figuring out what I'd like to do in the moment, and doing more by doing less, feels pretty darned good! I forgot how much I liked being me. Heh.

Why not give it a try!

• Take measure of all that you are doing in your life
• Go away for a weekend trip and bring only the basics
• Or, imagine that the house was on fire and you could on bring out one thing.
• Take stock of all that you own, want, think you need, or are still paying off
• Reminisce back to the good-ole-days and see how really simple they were
• Stop thinking about any of this and take a nap - you probably need one
• Enjoy your life!